Wednesday, May 11, 2011

*The "C" word*

It's 4:45am and I've laid awake in bed for the last 2 hours tossing and turning trying to fall back asleep.  I finally decided to get up and share with you why my mind is spinning!  Tuesday (yesterday) our family got hit with another nasty blow!  Let me back up...A couple of months ago, after a string of events, my mother in law was diagnosed with lung cancer.  The doctors told her she wasn't a "canidate" for surgery because she's 81 and only weighs 80 lbs.  Her body isn't strong enough to go through it!  Chemo & Radiation would wipe out any quality of life she has left so she chose to go home and live life.  It's been really hard to watch her hurt and struggle with her breathing and not be able to fix it for her.  As if that wasn't father in law hasn't been sleeping and he's been in quite a bit of pain.  After a Dr. visit and CT scan, then another Dr. visit with a different Dr. then an immediate "procedure" it was determined that he has bladder cancer!  He will have surgery this Friday at 1:00 to remove the mass and see where to go from there.
The "C" word really scares me and takes me reeling back 18 yrs. ago when my first husband died of cancer which left me a widow at 23 with two small children.
I said it then and I'll say it now...God doesn't come knocking on our door to ASK us if we want a burden or two to carry for a while!  What He does say is, "Here, while you carry that burden, let me carry you and we'll walk through this together!"  I have to hold on to that and continually remind myself that we're NEVER alone.  I have no idea what the future holds BUT I do know who holds the future!  Please pray for Jack & Lorene...
1 Peter 5:7 says:
Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about what happens to you. 


  1. Praying for you guys, I know the "C" word is scary but God is bigger than any cancer. May Jack's surgery go well and relieve him of the pain and of cancer. Praying for Lorene as well, that God will ease any discomfort and heal her body too. Love ya bunches! You are an amazing woman and a wonderful daughter in law and wife, God knows what HE is doing even though we don't understand.

  2. The "C" word shows no favorites. Having lost my mother to it, I know first hand how it can bring anxiety to families. HOWEVER, God is still in control, is still the great physician, and is still the God of comfort and peace. I am praying for you all and that the upcoming surgery goes well.